ive been spending all my time just thinkin about you…

Rang in the new year with Em and my parents instead of going out, which was probably a good choice. I drove to see Lucky yesterday morning and we had breakfast before I had to leave because of the snow. Suffice it to say, driving back home was a bitch; I saw four accidents, some car flipped over, and then essentially couldn’t get off the highway because I didn’t know where I was and theres about 7 miles between exits 7 and 6 on 95 south. I got off the highway and burst into tears, I don’t ever remember being so scared to drive in my life.

After that, I ended up spending the day with Em as she cleaned out more of her room. Amanda also texted me for a bit, worried about me and wanting to make sure I was okay. She’s instigated both today and yesterday’s texting conversations so I think things are going well. In fact, we’re supposed to go to Target in a half hour or so – she just wants to go shopping but she also said she wanted to see me, which made me smile and feel good.

I’ll update tomorrow mostlikely about resolutions and such, I just wanted to scribble something down before I went out.

lick your cigarette…

She’s officially ruined Target for me, I can’t even enjoy going shopping anymore without thinking about her and it’s making me crazed today. I haven’t check her FB, I haven’t talked to her/contacted/seen her in any form and yet all day I glanced at every gold Honda Accord that drove by. I don’t know what possessed me to do that, I wasn’t looking for her, it wasn’t even really a conscious effort on my part. I hate not being in control.

Other than that, I spent $75 on dog toys, a new journal and a belt at Target before buying a new router for the house so I can get online without fighting with the modem for 10 minutes. Yes, it’s been one of those days.