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like a radio tune I swear I’ve heard before…

No one from work last night wanted to go out — well wanted to go out with me, which hurt my feelings a little. Perhaps tonight but I’m going to try and not count on it. I of course made the mistake of inviting her with a little – We’re going out if ud like to join us after u get out. The response was somewhat positive with a who, where, when and then I think she really thought it out and decided she was going to go home instead. I told her plans had fallen through but I was probably going to go out anyways, even if it meant by myself. Her response was that she didn’t think it was very safe but I’m a big girl, I can take care of myself I said.

Besides, I went out with Jess anyways. We ended up at MB around 1am since it took me so long to get ready. We had fun though, doing makeup and picking outfits. She ended up having more of a fun time than I did since she made out with this kid named Al while dancing. He asked for her number – I’m not sure if he’s a regular there and a creep but I said she could at least text him the next time we went to see if he’s around. Continue reading


this is all we got…

Went to see Beauty and the Beast tonight with Em and mom and it was OMG FUCKING FABULOUS! It’s always been my favorite fairy tale and the story just gets me everytime. I basically cried through most of it. I just really identified with Belle who didn’t fit in and wanted so much more from life than what was planned for her, what people expected from her. Once she’s in the castle, she sings a song called Home which I know by heart and I just bawl every time I hear it.

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if i could be sweet…

Snow day today, which was nice — although truth be told I wasn’t going to go to class. I’m not sure what my problem is right now. I’m so restless. I blame having spent the day in the house couped up with my grandparents but I’ve been feeling this way lately and not just today.

I think it’s alot of things. I’m not stressed about money now, but the apartment and Amanda and school have me stressed enough. Even if it’s just the idea of needing to worry over it – it’s all so overwhelming.

I’ve kept my promise to myself. I haven’t signed in as her, even though she told me that she and Lelia had a fight yesterday and that she’s steering clear of her so things blow over. I don’t know what that means — I’d love to find out but unless she’s going to tell me, there’s no reason I need to know. We won’t get to meet this week, I’m nearly positive now, although I was holding out hope before but I can see now that it’s not feasible. Having missed rehearsal tonight, she’s got less than a week to pull the entire show together – she’s going to be a wreck and god only knows who she’s lashing out at next. I would be there for her if she’d let me, but whatever.

On a bright note, my mom, my sister and I are going to see Beauty and the Beast tomorrow night which I’m really excited about. It’s my favorite Disney princess story because it’s one of the only ones where the girl doesn’t need to be saved, and in fact, she does the saving herself.