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if i could be sweet…

Snow day today, which was nice — although truth be told I wasn’t going to go to class. I’m not sure what my problem is right now. I’m so restless. I blame having spent the day in the house couped up with my grandparents but I’ve been feeling this way lately and not just today.

I think it’s alot of things. I’m not stressed about money now, but the apartment and Amanda and school have me stressed enough. Even if it’s just the idea of needing to worry over it – it’s all so overwhelming.

I’ve kept my promise to myself. I haven’t signed in as her, even though she told me that she and Lelia had a fight yesterday and that she’s steering clear of her so things blow over. I don’t know what that means — I’d love to find out but unless she’s going to tell me, there’s no reason I need to know. We won’t get to meet this week, I’m nearly positive now, although I was holding out hope before but I can see now that it’s not feasible. Having missed rehearsal tonight, she’s got less than a week to pull the entire show together – she’s going to be a wreck and god only knows who she’s lashing out at next. I would be there for her if she’d let me, but whatever.

On a bright note, my mom, my sister and I are going to see Beauty and the Beast tomorrow night which I’m really excited about. It’s my favorite Disney princess story because it’s one of the only ones where the girl doesn’t need to be saved, and in fact, she does the saving herself.


if you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it…

I don’t want to know what they’re talking about, I haven’t looked. We spoke Saturday night when I asked how she was feeling but that was the last time. I’m not going to be the one – she has got to make an effort. She said she wanted to get together this week. If she can make the time for me, I’ll do it. If she can’t even be bothered to text me to ask how my day was or a simple email, I don’t know where this leaves us. In two weeks, when her rehearsals are over and she’s suddenly got time for me, does it change things? Continue reading

there’s a thin line ‘tween the dark side and the light side

I’m not even going to preface this with a statement about morality. Just read it. Continue reading